Wednesday, May 25, 2011 x 9:55 PM
Now that my wishes have all come true. I am struck with fear about the unknown and the future. I am clueless as to how my university life will be or how I am going to deal with all the modules and the schedule planning. I really pray fervently that I will enjoy the guidance that I have had previously. Recently I have been working really intensive shifts at work and while my parents may complain, I am perfectly happy. As much as I really like the people there, the environment is like a lion's den and I feel that every step that I take and every action I do is surveyed and being observed. I find myself being unable to trust anyone except for the close ones around me. I think a person can be trusted and the next moment, somebody tells me, actually, that person is not what they seem to be. sometimes I feel like saying wtf is wrong with this place. we are but waitresses earning 300 bucks per month, and trying to make customers happy, so why still argue and criticize. so long everybody is trying their best it is good enough. for me, I am just there to earn my keep and to gain experience, whether you suck or rock, i don't really care. if you rock, I will kudos you but if you suck, I am not gonna judge you either, I will just maintain my silence and distance.
