love:hate

2012-01-28T21:58:00.003+08:00

To people who are reading this dying blog still, just a word of notice:

I have shifted myself permanently to http://behindthewhitewall.tumblr.com/

LAST DAY OF WORK

2011-08-03T00:54:00.004+08:00

This post is suppose to be a really happy one but somehow, I got a really strong feeling that it is going to be a post filled with mixed emotions. Back to basics, today is my last day at work. While I finally feel like I can rest after a really long time, I also feel the tinge of sadness in my heart because ultimately, the many people I have met in Fosters have really given me a wonderful time to look back on a few years down the road. It has not been a smooth flowing journey these 7 months, there have been multiple obstacles along the way and even times when I wondered if I was just a terrible waitress cos I made a mistake. But I have come a long way from that stage to one where I just go 'Oh wells, what has happen has happen, noting I can do'. And this is life, there is no going back and if people want to criticize you, so be it, because deep down you know yourself best and what to expect. If what I have learnt during my time here, it is that friends are essential regardless of the places you go and work in. They really help you to survive everything. The many suppers at Wendys with the Wendy Gang (or so we like to call ourselves) were extremely good frustration venting sessions and it provided an outlet often when we were feeling depressed over some minor incident that is not really worth mentioning. The second thing I have learnt is mutual respect. Be it in terms of towards your colleague but towards customer as well. If i respect a customer, I expect to be respected in return. If I don't get that , than I don't see the point in me serving you cos you are just not deserving of my service and respect. And lastly, I learnt to carry trays and stack plates and what goes into drinks and opening wine bottles. These are the more literal things that I have learnt and I can assure that no where else are you going to learn how to stack plates except in a restaurant. There have been multiple learning points along the way but to sum it up, the excerpt above would be a good summary. Today is the last day and I have to say a thank you to everybody. To my manager and the full timers, for taking the time and effort to coach me and teach me despite my failures and mistakes at times. To my fellow part timers, including those who have left, all of you have been essential in giving me great memories to remember and you guys made my days in the restaurant. Without you guys, I doubt I could have lasted so long. And lastly, to the kitchen stuff, they have been great people,totally different from my first opinion of them. Their provision of food during times of hunger pangs in the midst of work often prove to be a good motivating factor to hang on till the end of the shift at 11 pm at night. Their laughter is contagious and many a times, I find myself smiling because of their words. They are a really brilliant bunch of cooks I must confess. Not to mention, the customers along the way who provide words of encouragement, they give me the confidence to push on and to improve myself. It has been a great times at Fosters and if I can choose all over again, I would still choose Fosters, because it is really just such a wonderful place to work in. And while my time is over, my memories of the place will still remain in my memory for a long time to come. :)

"Service is what life is all about."-Marian Edelman

2011-06-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

也不知道我到底是怎么了，竟然决定用华文来写，也许是因为最近读的书都是华文小说，所以不自不觉就想用华文来表达我的感情和实想。其实我会开始读华文书，我也觉得非常惊讶但我不得承认，华文从不同角度来看，倒是个非常优雅的语言。任何事情都可以用非常美丽的字来形容，让读者深深的感受到所有的感触。话说回来，因为我爹是台湾人，所以难面也习惯听，说，看华文，所以我觉得华文并不是非常陌生。

最近有很多事情让我心情非常重，连笑的力气也没了。再过两个月我就要开学了，而当然我非常期待大学生活，但，在同一个时候，我也感觉害怕，因为我根本看不到眼前的路，也不知道我接下来会是过着怎样的一个大学生活。是一个开心，充满美好回忆的经验，还是会是我这一辈子最痛苦的时光。说到时间，我不得不承认，时间的却过得非常快。一转眼，我就已经是十九岁了。回想起小的时候，我是多么盼望着能够快快长大，进入大人的世界，但现在，我后悔当时的愿望，因为进入大人的世界并不像我想的那样完美。事实上，生为一个大人，要扛的责任也增加了。以前，生活费都有父母出，但现在，我靠自己的双手打工，在饭店做服务生，在空的时间，教小孩子补习，而所有赚来的钱都是用来付我的日常生活费用。新亏我人不会乱花钱，佛则，现在应该已经是破产在街边向路人要钱了吧！

但就如人家说，一个人是不能一辈子都躲在屋里面。总有一天要出来看一下世界，了解社会到底是一个怎样的地方。虽然艰苦，但我相信，最总，我还是会有许多美好的回忆的！！

A NEW CHAPTER

2011-06-13T16:09:00.002+08:00

A new start is always frightening, fraught with the unknowns and the indeterminate things. But I believe that somewhere out there, everything will solve itself eventually. As I leave the sanctuary of a child's world, and venture into the adult world, I suddenly come to realize a lot of things. I start to ponder my future, what is to come, what will I become and marriage and many other things. suddenly, growing up seems so terrifying.University is starting soon in a months time and while I am trying to enjoy the best of my remaining holidays, I have a fear building up of my future and alas, sadness that my job will have to end soon. The many memories that I have are ever important and will always be. Back to happier thoughts, I think I will be going back to Indonesia soon for the holidays before university starts.:)

2011-05-26T23:45:00.003+08:00

I am hooked to the song 'don't touch those faders' by Jacynthe. like officially. it is really catchy and just gets to you. I have been finishing work at 10 pm these few days, thus I have spare time to update my blog at least, rather than sleeping when I come home straight. tomorrow is girls nite out, need to drink badly. the last drink I had was at Timbre in April and now I feel like i need some alcohol to work up my nerves to face the future and its many uncertainty. missing my colleagues at work. guess there will be no wendys this week cos none of us have a common schedule at all.

Seriously, if you are only willing to pay $27++ for your bloody farmhouse steak, don't kick up a fuss. You want it big than you gotta spend the money. We are an established steak restaurant and NOT some hawker centre western eatery If you want a good cut steak for $27++, you will have to compromise on the size. I am sorry that it is disappointing but that is the truth. Kicking up a fuss and even getting us chided by the manager is definitely not enjoyable and I certainly hope I will never encounter such unpleasant situations in the future.

But aside from that, the night was a pleasant one and I even met my fellow law interviewee. and we were like OMG, can't believe it is you.haha. guess life is full of surprises. we are not going to be course mates but I am glad I got to know her at least.on a note, I really am waiting for tomorrow to come sooner...!!

2011-05-25T21:55:00.002+08:00

Now that my wishes have all come true. I am struck with fear about the unknown and the future. I am clueless as to how my university life will be or how I am going to deal with all the modules and the schedule planning. I really pray fervently that I will enjoy the guidance that I have had previously.

Recently I have been working really intensive shifts at work and while my parents may complain, I am perfectly happy. As much as I really like the people there, the environment is like a lion's den and I feel that every step that I take and every action I do is surveyed and being observed. I find myself being unable to trust anyone except for the close ones around me. I think a person can be trusted and the next moment, somebody tells me, actually, that person is not what they seem to be. sometimes I feel like saying wtf is wrong with this place. we are but waitresses earning 300 bucks per month, and trying to make customers happy, so why still argue and criticize. so long everybody is trying their best it is good enough. for me, I am just there to earn my keep and to gain experience, whether you suck or rock, i don't really care. if you rock, I will kudos you but if you suck, I am not gonna judge you either, I will just maintain my silence and distance.

2011-04-17T00:05:00.004+08:00

'Left outside alone' by Anastacia is one of my favorite songs of all time, even after so many years. I still remember the first time I heard it I was in Primary School and now I am like 19.The lyrics always invoke many mixed feelings inside me and I have posted my favorite part here, for those of you who are not familiar.

And I wonder if you know

How it really feels

To be left outside alone

When it's cold out here

Well maybe you should know

Just how it feels

To be left outside alone

To be left outside alone...

I felt really happy when I first came and I thought I would see you but as I found out that you were on break for a week, my feelings just plummeted down, like to the bottom. Suddenly I realize that one of the forces that keep me going is not just cos I like it because you are present.When you are gone, I keep asking myself what will I do.

It is a constant struggle to do what is right and what I feel like doing.I really am pushing my boundary further than I ever did and I will keep it to myself because I know it is never possible and that it will only ever be my own secret to keep.And on the same note, I really feel like I have been left out alone in the cold, with no sense of where I should go or do.

2011-04-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

DEPRESS.that is my feeling right now at 12.48 am in the morning. I still can't believe that I actually spilled water all over the guy who is a friend of the restaurant's boss. like just how much worse could the whole situation get.I actually lost balance of the tray and I myself am clueless as to how it happened though I think the guy's hand kinda blocked my way and I leaned in more than I usually do and ended up titling the tray.though my manager did not scold me, I still felt really miserable and I felt like a sinner and I still do.I have failed and disappointed my manager's faith in me as a good waitress.but this is life. there are always obstacles and mistakes that we make and if we don't learn to forget and move on, we will be miserable forever.

Recently, I have had a lot to think about and many things that I am feeling confused about. Sometimes, I really wish you would not be so nice to me and help me so much. I wish you did not ever call me by that name, than I would not ever waver in my promise to myself. I keep asking myself just how much of the boundary am I willing to push. we are really far apart and we are so different and I know it is impossible but your care for me makes it hard for me to entirely ignore everything.I wish I knew whether you are joking or being serious, and what do you really think.I will admit, that seeing you just makes me really happy but is my happiness just an imagination on my part or do you really make me feel happy?

2011-04-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

Yay.tomorrow is Friday which is working day. at fosters. really really looking forward to it cos I can finally relax and just be a waitress who wants to serve customers the best she can.When I reflect back to the first day I joined fosters, it seems a really long time ago and I realize just how much I have learnt as a waitress and how far I have improved and progressed over the months that I worked. From a newbie who did not have the guts to carry wine glasses on a tray to somebody who is able to carry wine glasses on a tray SINGLE handedly,it really amazes me. The many challenges that I have to overcome continually to become a better waitress is what I like so much about this job. There are always new things for you to conquer, be it carrying trays of plates and balancing plates or taking orders and knowing the correct procedure when serving food and drinks. It is tedious but it is fun and valuable. Even if I leave fosters at the end of July or August, I will still tell everybody it was one of the best 8 months of my life and that it is one of the memories I will cherish the most in my life because I learnt so much there and the value of working in a team and how it makes you feel a sense of bond when we laugh and cry through all the obstacles. Well, but that aside, to happier thoughts, I just want tomorrow to come and get through it as best as I can.

2011-04-13T14:21:00.002+08:00

ok.now i am getting worried.like seriously.everyone has recived a call or letter from NUS telling them to go for interviews and i have got noting except for a 'Application Received', which was the same thing that I saw three weeks back.with NTU and SMU like out, I am only waiting for NUS to reply me which they are not DOING and making me freak out by the day. Suddenly I feel like going back to Taiwan to spend the rest of my breaks with my grandmother and my all too hilarious aunt and my always calm and steady military uncle. not to mention my dad's friend in taiwan promise to bring me around Tainan to see the salt mountain, which I have heard a lot about from my dad. The food there and all the fun, is what i really miss. there, i feel like i am not a student worrying about my applications and my life and that I am just a person trying to live my life to the fullest I can, having fun and joy, rather than worry. I may be a Singaporean and am proud to be one (it is true absolutely) but undeniably, I am still a Taiwanese at heart and if there is a place that gives me the comfort Singapore cannot give, it is Taiwan, cos it is my hometown ultimately.

Choices

2011-04-12T12:22:00.004+08:00

CHOICES. The last thing I would ever expect myself to face is a case of too many choices when it came to my university decisions. I always thought my dismal results throughout my two years in JC would leave me with little choices but surprisingly, I managed to fare btter than anything and suddenly, I am confused as to what to choose. I really hope to get Singapore law but if i were to be rejected, it would mean choosing between Hong Kong Business and UK Law and Singapore Business. They are all equally attractive but it is also this very choices that gives me a great headache.And wiht HKU chasing my heels for the bank draft i am kinda stressed out and even more confused as to where to choose. Dreams or personal desire? That is the question.

2011-04-08T23:11:00.002+08:00

end of the week=night out. wanted to go for a drink but cos my friend does not drink so i ended up eating ice cream at coldstone creamery at holland village AGAIN.i tried the granma's apple flavour today and i am sorry, but for the 10 bucks that i paid, i thought it was a total cheater.i feel that the strawberry shortcake is still more worth it, considering the ingredients inside.life in the law firm so far has just been me adopting the library as my official sanctuary in the office. my mentor has officially forgotten about me (just kiddin), he says i have to give him time to prepare things so i have given him this whole week to prepare. read up on the penal code and financial law. the most interesting perhaps was when i read up on past law cases, like the toa payoh murder and the curry murder. like seriously, people have the most sadistic thoughts on earth and people are just so foolish. or at least some, that i find it unbelievable.seriously.laughable as it is, it is also very tragic.tomorrow is when i work again in the rest, so looking forward to it!

2011-04-06T15:01:00.002+08:00

most people will know of or have heard of the famous painting 'judgement day', when the world ends and i personally felt that today was my very own judgement day. the day where everything i said had to weighed with the greatest of all thoughts, subtle enough to impress yet not leaving any flaws to be picked on. the art of interview is not an easy one and i thank god that i had my sisters to train me and prepare me by screwing me till i was gonna explode at home.yes, today was the ultimate interview for my ultimate dream. surprisingly i was very calm throughout the interview, three in a group and i was grouped with a really great bunch of people. they were extremely nice and often, gave way to each other throughout the interview. the interview was pretty good or so i felt but things are deceptive but the essay made me feel less than confident because it was kinda of a screw up. hopefully it is true that they place less weightage on essays and more on interviews.well, either way, it is over and i just had strawberry shortcake ice cream at coldstone creamery. that was true HEAVEN. i felt like i was transported from HELL to HEAVEN. but this whole interview is extremely valuable and will prep me well for any future interviews i have. as of now,i officially declare myself to be satisfied and that i will just wait for verdict day to come.

2011-04-04T20:50:00.002+08:00

CHANGE is always good. I don't know how many times i have heard this sentence from people around me but yes, change is refreshing. first day of internship and things got off to a very bad start when i failed to get my ass onto the shuttle bus. yes, call me lazy or whatever but that is just me. but an angel flew from the sky and offered to share a taxi with me and even paid my taxi fare so yes, i hitched a free ride for free.(not without guilt here but hey, i did try to pay back but he refused so fervently that i could not do much). I did not get the department i wanted but OPTIMISTIC. that is what i learnt from the adam khoo talk i attended eons ago in primary six as a PSLE kid.so yes, i am optimistic but my mentor is much more caring than the previous one i had. ( to be honest, financial security is not really my cup of tea).One thing i am just really glad is that i have met a great group of fellow interns who stick it with you and pass the time with you. it makes life in the office library so much more bearable.my mentor has promised me more stuff in the future so i am gonna take his words for it and wait patiently for it. NOW, comes the not so positive part. well, i am kinda oscillating between happiness and depression/worry. Happiness bcos SMU Law School called me for interview but depress bcos i have only got ONE measly day to prepare for it and needless to say, i was in relax mode because i was expecting the interview next week. so i am rushing to prepare as best as i can and trying to read up more on general information that would assist me in getting the dream that i want SOO badly since i was in secondary school and realise that i love debating and arguing things out. If i can get my dream, i will be happy forever i think. like seriously.:)

2011-04-03T21:49:00.002+08:00

i will admit that i am non religious and that i do not follow any religion strictly but having left the logical sanctuary called 'school' and entering the adult world, I realized that i have started to believe in luck more often than not and thus, today i embarked on a journey to a temple all the way in the East side, which is believed to be extremely lucky. I prayed fervently and i sincerely hope my wishes will come true and that i can get what i what.tomorrow is the start of my attachment and I have been going around in a mad rush to buy clothes and shoes for the start of work, it feels like i am starting school term again. or at least it reminds me of the last minute rush i use to put my parents in before school term started and the incessant nagging that would befall me for doing things at the last minute. but i have grown up A LOT, since my secondary school days and i have matured a lot and now i understand the essence of planning as my sister will always say. I will admit i am kinda in a bundle of nerves for my work tomorrow. this reminds me as well of another incident, which occurred on my first day of working in the restaurant. i reached Holland village super early and was too nervous to enter so i circulated the whole area twice before i calmed my nerves and entered the restaurant. that was hilarious but thinking about it, i was a coward than. i am no stranger to khattarwong, having worked there two years before but i do sincerely hope i get a mentor who can be bothered with a small fledgling like me. many have asked me if is law all i want and i will say the truth, yes, it is all i want but i also know that in life i cannot get everything and if all else works against me, i do have a second option, cos like i said, if u plan well, u need never worry and to young people out there ( not that i am v old), planning always helps.trust me. you wont regret it at all, if you PLAN. ok, perhaps i should consider being a motivational speaker...:)

2011-04-02T21:39:00.002+08:00

Its been a really long 2010 and 2011 and after nearly a whole year of inactivity, I have suddenly felt the need to pour my thoughts out somewhere, thus I have decided to start blogging again. Even if nobody reads it, its fine since my essential aim ultimately is to just relieve myself of my many opinions. If you do happen to read, well, these are just my thoughts so you may not prescribe to them, which is fine by me. Well, after the whole trauma of A levels which turned out fine and good, (yes, i still wake up with nightmares of being late for the exams and i think i will still dream of these 10 years down), i have been working at a restaurant for the past two months. And it is a very exciting two months so far. Well, having been enclosed in a 'cage' called school for the past 18 years, entering the adult world is like falling into and endless pool but you do get out of it in the end, through many errors along the way. Anyway, back to the topic of working in a restaurant, it has been exciting albeit tiring but it makes you happy when you serve customers and they give you praises and compliments, it makes you take pride in your job. yes, being a waitress is not the most glamorous job on earth but if there were no waitresses, everyone would be doing self service and clearing their own plates, which is not the best image one can envision.i have met my fair share of hilarious situations, embarrassing moments, angry moments when i just feel like knocking my head against the wall but it has been GREAT, if i have to use one single word to describe it. A naggy manager, nice colleagues and a kitchen of hippotamus as my manager calls them, they do make the working experience an interesting one and a eye opener. I will be doing an attachment at the start of April, so i can only work the weekends, which is sad but well, the attachment is more important than the customers i serve. on a note, i am actually looking forward to my attachment very very much.:)

2010-01-16T14:44:00.002+08:00

school has just started and its the end of the 1st week. not much has changed and life is pretty much the same. some good and bad things have occurred like people transferring to poly and everything but life is pretty much full of changes. just gotta get used to it. been lacking sleep due to like cca stuff, the open house and LONG over due hols hw. i am sure some ppl out there share the same sentiments.haha.end of the week and i have officially finished my holiday hw. and my birthday is approaching, in like 4 days time. my family are planning something but i have yet to figure out. i shall be co-operative and not ruin the surprise element. and i am gonna take this opportunity to ask for new stuff. haha.and i cant wait for my $250 to come from the good progress award. :)

2009-12-10T11:24:00.002+08:00

khattarwong attachment just ended. It was fun, despite the lack of office work for me to do, i had fun and i am gonna miss it soon. hours spent in the banking, finace and property department crapping about in from of the computer while doing some paper work and the tedious proof-reading and i guess the best part is the trips down to the courts for hearings. haha. attended two pre- trial conferences. after this attachment i think i have really learnt a lot abt the law, esp from all the research my mentor ask me to do using the books in the khattarwong library which is great.haha. i got like ms barker for my mentor, i was impressed but not so much as when i saw subhas anandan, that was the real deal.we had lunch with hin at harry's and really, as a crimminal lawyer, he looks diff from what i imagined.but he has a really dry humor like when is he angry or just being lame.haha.the view from UOB plaza is great.seriously.it is like looking out to boat quay.ok.this posting has been fun with loads of funy moments and much laughter. i will try to get pics up soon.

2009-10-15T20:58:00.002+08:00

hooked onto heartbreaker by G-dragon.i think its gonna make it to my list of top 30 favourite songs of all times.i really respect him as an artiste for daring to be the way he is. others may slam him for having a weird taste but i think the fact that he ignores these comments and pursue what he really wants is something that not every person is able to do.i just think he is really cool. just love his apple in the video.:)

back to school, i had some OP workshop today fpr PW presentatioand i think its great that we are learning how to speak good British english but i think this is where the whole problem comes in. when you speak in the British way, poeple slam you for trying to sound fake and when you speak the way the Singaporeans do, people slam you for bad english, so tell me what the hell are we suppose to do. what do we speak. i think at times like this its easier to just shut-up and not speak. i doubt if one workshop is gonna make me change my speaking way entirely but i guess i will just work on the way i speak now slowly and step-by-step. my one aim is to just ace my PW, as i believe does everyone else wants to. but on the one hand, i admit that my pronounciation is not as good as i like and that i could do better...guess i will just have to work on it continously.

built sandcastle yesterday and our class was just great. i was so happy upon seeing the final product and i had fun.haha, though it got a bit tiring to the end.haha.i think ours was one of the biggest structure. credit to everyone in the class for their efforts.:)

and oh yes, by choosing the arts stream, i am NOT mad, as some of my tchs thought. as a art student i too have career options too, maybe less than science stream studenst but i like the arts and thats the way it is, noting is gonna change and i have no regrets ever choosing the arts stream.

2009-10-10T16:39:00.002+08:00

conducted the interview yesterday. it was quite an refreshing experience and it went better than i expected. now we have to subtitle it. went to orchard to get shir her gift.which is like way overdue, by two weeks.around there.now that the exams are over and i start to think back about the answers that i wrote and suddenly i feel like i just screwed everything up.the thought of not getting promoted with the rest just kinda bursts my happiness bubble.just hoping that such a thing does not happen..my parents and sisters coming back tomorrow.look forward to it cos' i can take a break from having to do all the household chores but me and my sis learnt a lot like how to cook 15 min meals.haha.we cooked kimchi soup,we fried udon and it was quite interesting and it tasted quite good.maybe i could be a chef..lol..counting down to the hols already....:)

2009-10-08T21:32:00.003+08:00

YAY!!!EXAMS ARE OVER!! cant say how relieved i am. haha. but cant enjoy for long i guess, cos we gonna get results back soon.:( feel stresssed. shall enjoy myself while it lasts and now its back to the workd of PW.yes.PW. either you love it or you hate it. guess i kinda tread on both depending on my mood.haha. missed pearl.hope to meet her soon.haha.but guess till her 22 days in China is over i wont get to see her.haha. ok. i am like rambling now.haha.

2009-08-30T11:54:00.002+08:00

yesterday went for tuition, and the first thing the tutor said was,please be careful, there is some guy who is throwing ice bags at our students.so please walk under the walkway and in the end i still ended up walking in the open cos' the walkway had a black cat sleeping and scold me for being supertitious but i am generally afraid of black cats. especially their yellow eyes. it looks so scary. i mean the black cat you seen in sabrina the teenage witch looks cute enough but the random black cat on the street is not so friendly after all.:) but enough about cats. on to other things. finished my geography essay at last. my brain was dying along the way. had to do my own research online on Toyota cos' the notes were kinda insufficient. doing my econs essay outline now and my WSS presentation.can't wait for all my presentation to be over.having schedule problems with my music lessons.i am starting to regret ever expressing interest in learning from him cos i am having a headache on how to fit everything in.:( on the bright side, next week is a really free week cos monday and tuesday hols AND it is the LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL. before the september hols.haha. i am so deprived of breaks...LOL.

2009-08-25T21:41:00.002+08:00

mia for quite some time. finally digged out some precious time to blog.PW is really killing me. and the rest of the group. spent the whole of saturday at the courtyard of the national library rushing our WR and though it was tough work, i must admit that the paper was quite impressive.haha. a HUGE credit to benita for painstakingly creating the diagrams.:p haha.failed my geog test. got 9 and that is a big, fat U, so depressed. and maths today i think i failed cos i scrwed up so many questions.:( so sad. i am not up to performance this term.i wonder why.i am worrying myself scik over getting promoted at the end of year.shant think about it. i will concentrate on other things...:)

2009-08-17T18:42:00.002+08:00

saturday was a really great day.first i met up with xinn first thing in the early afternoon and though she still looks the same she has really changed a lot from secondary school till now.she is in council and she is in the scholars programme i think and she is in hockey also,wow,that is like a lot of things and hockey is a sports cca and so it is pretty tough and tiring and she still manages to juggle everything.really hope to learn from her.but on the other hand, i am noting much, just a ordinary student.i swore off all these stuff when i went to jc.haha.so no regrets there really.i had enough of leadership in my sec and pri sch already as prefect and exco members.just wanna study and do well for my A'lvls at the end of everything.after meeting her, i went to meet my mom and sis to watvh the movie UP!.lol.cos there was a shortage of tickets, we ended up watching the 3D version and seriously, it is 3D but it is isnt that great either cos i cant really tell the diff btwn the ordianry movie and the 3D and not to mention i am paying like 3 bucks more.(maybe i should check my eyesight?lol) school was fine today and we celebrated mo lao shi b'dae.haha. it was quite funny to see his reactions.:)

2009-08-15T10:34:00.002+08:00

wkend has come.slept late today.lol.meeting xinn later for lunch i think.my sister wants to watch UP!.haha.maybe i will watch it to.it looked really cute.i mean the trailer.i have less hw this weekend so i will have more time to do my own things. doing my PJC maths paper and i got a headache so here i am blogging.sometimes i feel the world of friend is just so complicated.one moment we think we are great, the next we realise that things arent so rosy and that we are always deceiving ourselves into believing the best of ppl.but i guess that is what makes friends such great people cos they knw everything bout you whether its good or bad..

2009-08-11T18:34:00.002+08:00

felt really fed-up yesterday cos the conductor sent out a message saying that all combine practice will be held on fridays from 5-8.30 and friday just happens to be one of the days that i end early:( what is more initially i was thinking that since my cca is on thursday and my econs remedial is on thursday too than i can just kill two birds with one stone but now i gotta stay till 6.45 on thursday and 8.30 on friday.kinda sad.there goes my beautiful friday.but still, at least tuesday i end early.:)PW was quite efficient on monday. i was at the macs waiting since 9.30 and i got so strssed out in the end cos a lot of ppl were like asking me if i want to give my seat up and i know i was being inconsiderate and i felt guilty too, but if i gave it up we would have no place to do our PW.lol.the taming of the shrew ppt is gonna be over tmr.but i still have WSS and the literature question presentation to do.it would be great to just clear all at one go. it leaves me with more time to do other stuff....

2009-08-07T16:29:00.003+08:00

yesterday co ended so late that i got home feeling grumpy and the whole of yesterday and wednesday, i lost my temper at my group member twice.feel guilty now.sorry guys. i guess i am just feeling stressed.no offence intended.there is to be an upcoming practice so they will increase the practices i think, wish i could just take a break.yesterday was my sisters white coat ceremony, for her entry into med sch, and seeing the photos of her wearing the white coat and standing on the stage, i kinda wonder if i can be like her. if i can be as good as her and one day stand on the stage proud like her.there is a huge gap btwn her and me. i mean i am not that bad, but compared to her, i am still light years away, i wonder if i can acheive the results that she got for her A'lvls. straight As. in my life, i have never ever gotten the things that i wanted. i always have to settle for the second best or worst.sometimes i think the PSLE instils permanent trauma cos when you screw it up, it kinda knockes and eats at you for the rest of your education years.there is always this fear of the whole nightmare at PSLE occuring again.if i could just be as good as my sisters, in both the arts, the sports and the academic, than i will be overjoyed, but meanwhile, i am just gonna stick with more realistic goals of passing my promos at the end of year.

2009-08-02T17:22:00.002+08:00

found this really nice song by garry schyman called life.hooked to it.:) loads of things on my mind. cant seem to make up my mind on whether to choose zr or guitar. everytime i make a decison, i just gotta waver at the end.its making my mom irritated and i dun see why she has to get irritated like you dun even support me learning at all. you are just bloody skeptical of me balancing everything. every years since like 5 years ago, you told me that if i did well for my studies i could learn the guitar. that was all empty talk. i got top in class and the first few in level in secondary school but you always said i am not ready. now i am f***ing jc 1, i got little time left and you are still not willing to let me learn. to me, that is a dream that will never come true. she is supporting me to learn the zr cos she feels that i am wasting my time all those years but bloody hell, give me a break,after 5 years of pursuing the instrument in sch and outside, it has gotten too much and i need to take a breather so while i do that, cant i learn the guitar..?? is it that hard. damn...getting pissed by the minute.life is filled with empty promises...

2009-07-31T20:24:00.003+08:00

my 201 post.lol.hard to believe that the blog i started in secondary two has survived so long.been 4 years.today was PTM.my mom did not meet wendy ng in the end. but we went to meet the maths teacher, mr tan instead. he was really nice. he was like i did verywell and that the paper is challenging and that if it had been easier i would have gotten higher.Mr mohan was also very nice. in like he was so encouraging.starting to view him differenly now. ms zobel was ok too. the teacher were all great and they really tried to avoid portraying the students in a bad light.lol.better than lcl.she was the worst. even my mom felt insulted by her.:) ms huang was shocked at the state of my file. maybe i shld start filing it up.lol.tmr is wkend. gonna catch up on my precious sleep...

2009-07-29T21:58:00.002+08:00

this morning started well. i got to see him after not seeing him for like two weeks at the mrt stn.i knw it sounds lame.pardon me. school is ok. ptm is on friday.my mom ask me to go with her so guess i dun have much choice.lol.homework is ok. co has started and i am having trouble with ruan on fire. its rhythm is damn hard and so complex.full of half-beats. which i hate cos i suck at counting half-beats.haha.the two ppl are still not talking but at least i have found some way to live with it. tmr is NAFA retest, doubt if i will do better. since i passed, i am quite tempted to skip it totally.ahh.geog presentation was fun.haha. the role play was just hilarious. i was like wth.it tunred out much better than i expected.i think it was a great effort guys. the coffee game was just fun. we jacked up all the prices to the point that people were puking in front of our store and our reputation just collaped but who cared, so long so we had the money.haha.it was fun.you guys shld try it.sleepy...

2009-07-20T20:18:00.002+08:00

recently, so many things have happened.some happy, some are just bad. i got a C for Gp and S for my literature. might as well round-up all my results.schools work is fine but the PW is going downhill and at this rate we are probably gonna get a C. with bad relations brewing about in the group, i have no idea how the whole thing would progress, but i will keep my hands cross and pray everyday that a miracle will happen and that they will solve the problem bcos i dun wanna see them being torn apart..which friend would want to. maybe it takes time to learn how to forget and forgive. for me, it took a huge mistake and an equally huge regret to realise that forgiving and forgetting are the two most important things that we must always keep with us for they form a part of our principles.i believe that time will heal everything but the only worry it the amount of time needed. till they make it up, i dont think i will ever be able to be in peace or to stop worrying. why is my life full of one worry after another.just when one is gone, another has to pop up.i will admit that i am badly affected by my friends, especially when it come to things related to the relationship btwn friends.i am depressed now and so i will stop blogging for now but i really have no idea how to get around school..what should i do...oh god..i can only pray that things will work out soon...crossing my fingers.

2009-07-14T19:00:00.003+08:00

i got back more results.chinese was a B but cos i have yet to add the oral and listening so hopefully, it can go up to an A.econs was bad. i got a sub-pass only.sighz.but still, considering the many problems that i have in econs, it is pretty ok i guess.GP essay was 29.kinda pissed cos i got 33 at first than the teacher change to 29.sighz.the rest have yet to come back so gotta wait, probably tmr. A'lvl oral is on thursday.stress.lol.but my EoM seems to be going ok so,hope my life will be back on track soon.

2009-07-10T20:34:00.002+08:00

got back some of the results this week. pretty lucky so far cos i passed my maths with 29/60 which converted to 100 is 48..which is a E. well, it isnt very good but considering the dismal state of my maths, it is still lucky.i cld have gotten 30 but thanks to his strictness(the marker),he dedcuted 1 mark from my paper in the end as i forgot to put a negetive sign.lol.geography was my best subject, with a score of 69/100. which gives me a B. and it is a pity cos just 1/2 more mark and i wld have gotten a A.but in life, things dont always go the way we want.so i will just be content for now. next week will get back the rest of the results.i am fearful of econs cos the tchs comments gave me a feeling that the passing rate is really small.oh god.and mrs ng comments seem to suggest that our class didnt do too spectacularly.lol.the rest of the subjects are well, fine. except lit.afraid that i will fail cos my lit is really bad.oh well, lets pray that the good things will continue to come my way....

2009-07-04T21:17:00.003+08:00

I am finally getting a start in Taming Of The Shrew by William Shakespeare and its actually not too bad.once you get used to the annotations and references at the bottom and figure out how to utilise it. must finish by next tuesday since wednesday we will be tested on both taming of the shrew and wide sargasso sea. must read finish the last 100 pages of that.watched cartoon kat-tun online the whole afternoon.kinda wasted the afternoon than i fell asleep and the next thing i knew, my parents came back and woke me up saying that we were going to IMM..lol..gotta read the book again now...love the song rescue by kat-tun.i am going mad over japanese songs now.especially kat-tun.love them loads.haha.they are so funny. must thanks zhe ying cos she sent me and even search for the jap songs for me online. you rock. so does benita who patiently went to the website and helped me download the music files.haha.thanks a lot guys.i am just so relaxed and happy now...haha.

2009-07-03T21:54:00.003+08:00

exam is over at last...today had the final paper english literature and than afterwards, i went to amk hub to celebate the passing of the exams with pearl. Had ice-cream at new york ,new york, thanks a lot girl..haha..had so much fun. afterwards my family and i went out to goodwood park hotel, Min Jiang to eat and the chinese food there is real good, we often go there to eat,if you like good food, do try it.:) Exams have been ok..some went better while some went less of. GP was ok, maybe not great but i think i got a pass at least. Economics case study was good but the essay , especially part (b) wasnt so good so lets just hope i can get at least a D overall. Maths was kinda sucky, didnt expect it to be so hard, guess i should have listen to my sis when she said dont down on AJC paper, don't think its easy. its not.Geography was pretty good. all the things i studied came into good use. so that shldnt be a prob.overall, considering that is was my first major exam in AJC, it was quite an ok one..not as bad as i thought it would be. but well, humans do get by it in one way...

2009-06-18T17:49:00.001+08:00

I have finally gotten around to doing my homework.completed all my maths revision worksheet and i have also finished up my other subjects and am entering the phase of studying my notes for the mid-yrs so i wont be blogging for the next three weeks at least i think. so put up with my inactivity for the time being.

2009-06-12T21:13:00.007+08:00

i am totally depressed. i havent done any of my hw well, maybe a teenyweeny bit of my maths but thats about it,i havent touched my notes to study for the upcoming mid-years. i havent touch any of the three books i am suppose to read for my literature, one of which includes the disgustingly hard taming of the shrew by william shakespeare. not that i have something against william shakespeare but its in old english which i cant stand.and not to metion i have no idea how to go about doing the power of fiction poster.sigh.but on the brighter note, i had fun at MINDS cafe today.the games were fun.and the food was good too.i think if anyone wants to have a gathering of like 6 or more ppl, you should consider the MINDS cafe, its really good and they have like group packages.:)on the sadder note, i wont be joining the sentosa outing cos i gotta start mugging hard for the mid-years if i am to pass.lol.time really does flies when you are enjoying yourself...

2009-06-08T17:58:00.002+08:00

today had GP first thing in the morning.dun really like it but on the bright side, our GPP got approved.lol. After GP, i went to bishan junction 8 with shirlene for lunch and than we went to action city to help my sis get some gifts that she wanted and than we went to bishan library, where we searched high and low for the poetry collection books and we didnt really find much.sigh.a lot of unknown ones. guess we will make do with them for now. and oh yes, i bought vampire knight latest book volume 9.lol.read it like at least 4 times online but i still cant get enough of it.lol.gnna enjoy reading it.

2009-06-05T23:02:00.003+08:00

today was FUN.haha.went out shopping the whole day with my two best buddies, pearlyn and sui xin.miss them a lot. reminiscing all the good memories while we shopped around. met at island creamery at 11 and i had a mudpie.yum. havet eaten at island creamery with them since last year. popped down to orchrad far east and we got pearlyn her gift, sandals and we shopped like every level for her shoes and shirt and clothes for her court session. afterwards we had lunch at Es Teler 77.nice.love their ayam goreng.and pisang bakar.misses indo food loads. afterwards we went to borders and where i found out that noe of the bookstore in SIngapore stock the literature book i am doing for the power of fiction competition which in this case is liar's club by Mary Karr. So i will be changing over to Anna Karenina by leo tolstoy instead. it has a cool name so it damn well be cool to read. had dinner at crystal jade la mian and xiao long bao and i had wanton noodle and xiao long bao.yum.afterwards we shopped at wisma atria and takashimaya. my legs were close to breaking. didnt manage to drink coffee today so i think i will catch a cup of coffee with xinn next week. our favourite coffee bean outside borders close already, so guess we gotta make do with coffee club.:( there were many good memories at the coffee bean. that where we shared our woes over our kao ji.lol.such fond memories. and oh god, i am suppose to be doing my GPessay and not blogging and i still gotta meet ian and co for PW tmr.must chong liao..sighz.

2009-06-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

the hols are here. the weekend was fun as the whole family embarked on shopping trips.lol.fun.my dad has left to go back to taiwan already. hopes he can come back soon. my grandad and aunt from indonesia have come for my grandad treatment and wanted to go back to indonesia with them but cos of the dumb PW i cant and am stuck here.sigh.i miss indonesia loads.,havnt been there for 4 years. exams will start once hols end and i am still rotting away watching boys before flowers.atrocious. feeling the guilt now. okok. i will try to get down to real studying tmr. hope it wont be an empty promise..

2009-05-29T22:37:00.002+08:00

this has been an eventful week...with me meeting all the 101 datelines for various assignments before hols come.lol.hols is here.offcially.today had passing down ceremony.feel sad.will miss the seniors loads.meeting sx tmr.than getting my mom's gift.havent seen her for a long time. wonder gow she is.lol.this post is super random cos my head is buzzing with all kind of thoughts. cant think straight. guess i will blog tmr instead.

2009-05-26T20:25:00.002+08:00

wah..i just realise that for the damn bloody econs test i totally overlooked the word 'distinguish'. what they wanted was for me to differentiate vetween PED, XED and YED but foolish and blur me just listed and evaluated everything without realising that i was suppose to do a comparison. and the worst thing is wendy ng said that without comparison, the highest i can get is just a measly 4 out of 10 and thats assuming that my basic facts are right. this sucks. oh god. but its too late to regret. jusy do better for the upcoming one. recently, i have been sleeping thru at least all my econs lectures due to a lack of sleep and this is bad cos i am totally not absorbing what the lecturer is saying.dying of guilt now. on the brighter side, i fibally pushed my lit score from a pathetic 9 to a 11. still a fail but at least an improvement.and my chinese oral i got 27 over 30. woohoo.haha.on the high now. hope i cam ace my H1 chinese and fet an A.wishes after wishes....:)

2009-05-26T20:12:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BDAE PEARLYN!!! you are sweet 17 at last.:) hols is coming soon so we will celebrate your bdae soon ok..and also think a bout your gift. in like any particular gift since you are 17. a significant point in your life.:)

On another note, there is not much for me to blog today so i wont be blogging. just dedicating this post to my best buddy..:)

2009-05-25T20:15:00.002+08:00

it has been a long week, the whole of last week. i am still suffering from lack of sleep and i am feeling kinda sad that all the seniors are leaving.:( will miss them loads. i will take good care of xiao xian. wondering what i shld get for them as a parting gift.hmm.last week i got back my geog test and i got 23.5 over 35..oh my god.i was really stunned cos i didnt really study that much due to syf and everything. the perfomance yesterday was great and to all those who came to watch thanks a lot. as for shir and ben, sorry for making you guys wait and only to find out that i was on the bus on my way back to school.paiseh.look forward to hols. cant wait for it to come.lol.can relax and rest finally. my hw are piling up again so i better buck up and blog less..lol..

2009-05-23T21:56:00.002+08:00

I AM TIRED...like big time. today had like a full day rehersal.oh god.i am so tired. and huang lao sh got kinda pissed along the way at our failure with yunnan hui yi.sigh.the rehersal was just bad and messy and a total waste of time.like i just reach home. doing homework is definitely out of the question.lol.tmr id s long day. report at 1.30 amd finish up only at like 9.30.ppl who are coming down to watch and support us. thanks a lot.appreciate it loads.

2009-05-21T18:18:00.006+08:00

yes..reaching end of the week.i am just so exhausted and i still have performances this sunday and the rehersal on saturday. its killing me off. this week has been fine i guess. co still the same. GPP is givung all of us a super big headache. we are brain drain and the GPP is nowhere as good as anything.lol.tmr we will try and chong some of the GPP parts cos the weekend is kinda burnt up for me.sobs. tmr we will be getting the tests back.kinda nervous.lol.hopes i do decently well. not asking for much but to just be able to pass.lol.holidays are looming and i juts got my common test schedule and its ok i guess. with just one subject a day. i just hope i can do well for the mid years cos if i do well than it wld go a long way in making it easier for me to pass my end-of-years. i dunno why but i am just super scared of being retained and failing.like maybe its gotta do with confidence. i come from a neighbourhood school so maybe i dun have a lot of confidence yet but tahnks to all my friends who keep telling me not to worry so much.lol.i know i am a worry wart...

2009-05-19T21:57:00.003+08:00

i got a total stun that day when lan lao shi called me regarding the zhongruan lessons.taught he had totally forgotten about me .lol.i have decided to book the friday or tuesday slot after nooon around 5 plus at bugis eason enterprise there.he is gonna reschedule some classes and will inform me by this week at least.so relaxed now.worried for noting. and all of a sudden he sounds ok.like normal.lol.weird. co is just a daily affair now cos this sunday is the performance and in a moment of madness i guess or maybe the conductor is just adventurous, he actually chose the song yunnan hu yi by liu xing.like oh my god.thats a grade 9 song and a song that only professional orchestra play and we are gonna have to replicate it.i only saw it performed once during ruan xian.lol.but its quite nice. school work is ok. had my econs test today and uh, it was fine just that i kinda had a lack of time to finish up the essay.lol.my hand just refused to write faster.lol.exhausted. gonna enjoy myself this week cos i got no test but got common test after june hols. must start mugging. must pass at least...

2009-05-16T15:40:00.002+08:00

today was co and we had that irritating alimni as the conductor and i cant stand him.i have no idea why but i just simply cant stand him.lol.he got quite pissed at the end i think cos uh, yunnan hui yi is like a disgustingly hard song with like a solo player so its pretty hard to co-ordinate.we were like kinda lost but i think somehow we managed to get the hang of the song, just need some tuning.yea.some of the bars we even had to count for like 27 bars.oh.god.after that i had lunch with shirlene at nyp.that girl was like dying for tom yum noodle.most of the stores were close so i ended up eating ban mian.it was soso lah. i am not a noodle person.:)we crapped on the way to the bustop.abt some guy who is just damn weird.lol. lan lao shi hasnt replied my msg yet regarding the lessons.oh god. this is turning out to be so troublesome. it is so awkward. u have no idea how to solve this whole thing.just pray he is not pissed at me.arrgh.cos i kinda diaoed him like for 4 mths at least without replying him or informing him that i will be mia.screw it.think i gotta ask hui zhen for help again and 'fess up that i never took lessons with him at all.so paiseh.i am gonna have to trouble her again....

2009-05-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

when will i ever get to meet you. maybe we dun really have much luck with each other.your b'dae present is collecting dust in my house and i wonder when will you be able to receive it. i knw you take it hard on yourself so i am telling you that it is not your fault and thats the way life works so dun feel guilty for having to reject my invitations to go out. maybe that is just the way it is meant to be.either way, when your council events have all ended, tell me. and maybe we can plan a meet-up plan than cos base on what i see now, it seems pretty unlikely.and oh yea, i am taking grading for sure. i have made up my mind already,if you want to, tell me ok. i will probably be starting in a week to two weeks time.i am thinking of jumping to grade 6 and taking end of this year. but whatever it is, tell me soon ok.missing you always,:)

2009-05-15T17:00:00.002+08:00

these few days i have been pretty free.i know i should be studying for my mid-years but i just can;t seem to get down to it.next week is econs test.oh god.i hope i can pass.today was quite a boring day. i was like stoning off totally. cant seem to find anything to blog about.hmm.HAPPY B'DAE YI TING!!.lol.that girl refused to open my gift in front of me.wanted to see the looks of surprise on her face.haha.but seems like i wont get to see it.no matter what i just hope she really likes it a lot.:)

2009-05-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

i am suppose to be typing my chinese essay but instead i am blogging..oh god.i am guilty.like totally.lol.my chinese essay is having a huge problem cos uh the language that i am trying to use is way above my scope of chinese but if i use simple chinese than the whole essay will sound kinda crude.unrefined and void of feelings.like i talk about missing my childhood playmate sighz.maybe i got a bit too ambitious along the way.lol.thinking of going keat hong this saturday.i dunno lah.xian.HAPPY B'DAE YI TING! a bit early i knw but still enjoy!!)today i was like totally late but didnt get book cos i kinda sneaked in.so lucky.the bloody bud was stuck in a bloody jam at SCGS there for like 20 mins.i nearly died of impatience and anxiety.only reached school at like 7.35.lol.i sure am lucky.i have been inclined to be late the whole of this week.i wonder why.hmm.stop blogging and better start typing my essay or i will never finish it in time.wah....

2009-05-13T18:46:00.003+08:00

today was ok..this week has been fine though kinda boring. wish there was more stuff to do. i duuno why but recently i started trying to search for some way of contacting my childhood playmate.a futile search considering that i only know the name and a bloody kindergarten photo.and noting else.maybe some precious memories.i am desperate enough to even go to the extent of trying to do guesswork and asking ppl for resources.sigh.misses those time.lol.and i learn that you shld never judge a person by the looks or way they behave cos they have a alternate side that you dun see normally.and it makes some sense sometimes.lol.ok.enough of random ramblings.i am desperately trying to find a way to get my pick and my cloth back cos they return the daruan with all these things still inside.ahh.hope they dont dump it away.i will cry like shit.lol.and this week seems to be essay week. loads of essay to do.and all by friday.what a nice situation. and oh yea....HAPPY B'DAE SUI XIN. YOU ARE SWEET 17 AT LAST!!!(i knw it is a bit late but i mean it..)

2009-05-11T19:10:00.002+08:00

hah..just came back from orchard takashimaya with shir.went there and like shopped for gifts for my frens.that girl is really just practical.we were totally trying to abstain from gorging on famous amos cookies at wisma but they smelt heavenly. went to ian's hse for the project and he has got a fantastic hse.lol. we had pizza for lunch.thanks a lot ian.you rock.lol.:) and than we had like permanent braindrain doing the GPP.gosh.and i played battleship.;quite cool but i sucked compared to mr ian.lol.it was fun. bght gifts for my frens and than shir realise that she got taekwando and i was like gosh.shir dun be so upset k? mr lim is just being fierce for fun do dun fret ok..;D

2009-05-11T13:57:00.001+08:00

i am bored.stuck in ian's house doing pw and i am bloggin using kass laptop cos i am dying of braindrain.lol.working in a library is more effective.seriously.meeting sx later and i havent even gotten her a present yet.geez. thinking of getting her one before we meet but it doesnt seem possible at this rate.lol.hope we finish soon.dead tired.blog more when i reach home.:)

2009-05-08T23:53:00.007+08:00

syf 2009 daruan players: ying shiang, me, hua zhen and cai shi

picture from syf.all the daruan players.:)loves the daruan players. you guys rock.:D

2009-05-08T23:25:00.004+08:00

me and yi ting at the qing gong yan in ding tai fung.

this is the braid that claudy tied for my syf. posted at pearl's request and thanks claudy.

Today was plucking qing gong yab( post celebration) and it was fun.fun.lol.we ate at ding tai fung at junction 8 and we were like half-starved by the time we started eating cos we had to queue for the seats and than we had to wait for the college day ppl to be done..it was like 8 plus by the time we started. oh god. the guys really eat a lot man.its scay.had fried rice and xiao long bao and like soup.it was fun and at the same time we celebrated meiyi and yi ting's b'dae.thinking of treating her to crystal jade but lets see how. probably tuesday after school a sa dinner.lol.or if not island creamery.life wise is ok. quite relaxing.haha.the tchs are nice and my life is rocking away.here are some photos. post more when i get them.

2009-05-07T18:20:00.002+08:00

WE GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS..woohoo....i am just damn happy..all the hardwork and all the sweat we shed and the time we sacrifice and practiced till late at night finally gave us a gold with honours. they kinda like ban us from entering the inside and so we kinda stood under the speakers outside and listened. and when we heard that four schools already got gold with honours, i thght the chance of us getting was small and when they announced anderson finallly the guy was like "rong.." and we were like cheering and crying like shit.oh god.it was full of emotions. it was so hard to believe. so tmr the plucking section will be celebrating the qing gong yan..at like some jap buffet..lol.looks forward to it. and i passed my napfa not to mention i finally finished up my PI. oh god. for once evrything is like back to normal.lol.so tired.this whole week only like sleep a few hours.phew.but noting can dampen my good mood.:)

2009-05-06T00:26:00.001+08:00

SYF is tomorrow. oh god. i am like so nervous and excited.i hope we can get with gold with honours.Jiayou and all the way to the end. we have got noting to lose.

2009-05-02T18:21:00.003+08:00

recently i have been pondering if i should continue with zhong ruan grading or should i stop and switch to learning guitar instead, a dream that i always wanted. but being in a co where evrybody is a grade 6 or 7 really kinda makes you wanna be as good as them.if only this thought wld stop buggring me than i can give up grading with a peaceful mind. igfi were to continue grading, i wld have to go with lan lao shi and not huizhen and well, noting against lan lao shi but he he is situated all the way at queenstown which is really far so with jc life i dun think i can juggle it well and moreover, sx is probably not learning zr anymore and which means i will probably take alone.i kinda miss sx now. even thgh i have buddies in my current co, i still wish for you cos you cld get me see music in a way others cld not, and i miss the times when we wld play with such perfect co-ordination that even we were stun like we knew each others heart and mind, and i guess we kinda do. the times we spend crapping around cck lot 1 after practice for the grading with hui zhen and remember, the time i cried after the grading and we whiled away the afternoon to drive away my misery.and oh god.so many things. you have been a great partner.so let that thght comfort you in times of trouble and when you are tired.loving you and missing you always.cheers.:)

2009-05-01T10:29:00.002+08:00

labout day.finally the end of the week and i am free to breathe.yesterday's co practice ended with a good note after the speech about having confidence and ignoring the others.it was the best i ever heard. and the gold sign is back up again.lol.monday we having rehersal at SCH again.believe it or not the tchs actually paid themselves to rent it for us for an extra two hours.GWH all the way.jy.sch wise it is ok.just the speakezy speech is killing me. a microphone?? hello.never used one in like two years.whatever.i will just deal with it when it comes.my pw is like still stucj at AE.oh god.pls give me some improvement.i cant get an AE only.i will be stuck at that rate and get a C for PW. lol.hw s ok.there is a lit presentation and shir is like doing quite a lot of it cos i got co and thus, not much time.feel so guilty.better make up to her soon.

2009-04-27T00:42:00.003+08:00

saturday we had co and i was kinda happy that we had improvement. we could tell that the music was somehow more sincere.cant place the right word.than in the evening my family and michael family had bbq at the poolside.miss having dinner with them.and oh god. pascal and tpbias are so cute.esp pascal who was running around and taking photographs.lol.met their brother who had just come from germany for holiday.sad that they are leaving in July for Beijing but its ok, we can always visit them there.will miss them.drank wine and champagne and kinda felt a bit woozy after that lol. sunday still must perform rehersal.it was ok the rehersal but kinda disappointing cos we are not performing up to standard. but its ok so long so we believe in ourselves and play music that comes truly from the heart than it is ok.so jiayou all the way, esp to the daruan players.miss the SCH. went back there and felt like the old times BBSS.lol.trying to improve on my movement on stage. but i think i have come a long way from a player in BBSS to one in AJC.i actually memorise my score so well that i even know the bar no.something that is not possible in BBSS.and i actually can do actions and movements without feeling awkward or out og place.like a sense of freedom.hmm.i dunno.just random ramblings.back to hw, it is ok but hope i can cope, got a feeling everything will overload soon.sighs.gdnight.

2009-04-24T21:49:00.002+08:00

i am totally like shagged.big time.i am beat out and tired and feeling damn stressed.cant wait for syf to be like over of course, if we can get gold with honours than it wld be great.jy to the end.i like the tch in charge of today.she is like so motivating and i totally feel for co again.today went to nyp to eat and gosh, orientation i guess than the canteen was frigging full. in the end we tried the jap food or at least i troed. ben and shir already eat before i think.rotted in reading rm till co. and thanks a lot for borrowing the two daruan for everyone.with that, now we dun have to worry about npt having engh da ruans to go around.app it a lot.:)meeting pearl tmr.woohoo.looks forward to it meanwhile, i just wanna sleep.:)

2009-04-21T18:50:00.002+08:00

today was a lucky day cos just as i thght i cld not make it for bbss syf, the lit tch cancelled out the remedial and i was free to go.lol.me and benita went to united square first to get a free scoop of ben and jerry;s i ce cream and god,the queue was long.but it was quite fast and mm. the ice cream was good.lol.after that we rushed down to singapore conference hall and i was stunned that the tixs were sold out so i had to use zhi wei's instead and it wasnt the best but i think they did a good job.impressed with suona and percussion their expressions. i was also very impress with the zhong ruan team and their attempts at some movement as well as the liu qin. they have improved tremendously since i left in sec 4.i left strght after that and went home but stopped at outram with benita so she cld get her braces rubber band and the person was like go lvl 2 than the one at lvl 2 say go lvl 5 thn the lvl 5 say go lvl 4.sighz.up and down we went.than after that we parted at outram and i went home.i was tired and exhausted.lol.but i had a fun day and i wish the best for bbssco and benita must be happy to knw that the PL guzheng got gold with honours once again.told you no worries girl.:)

2009-04-19T10:55:00.002+08:00

forgot to blog about something that happened just not too long ago..i did something minorly wrong and i was asked to write a principal letter and that was the worst day of my life, i totally cried like shit...than mr mohan burst everything by saying that he was not serious and he was just acting and i was just like f***.like wth, u think it is funny to play such a thing of people.anyway, co is getting more and more stressful and the costume is well, ok i guess thgh i prefer the other one that they showed us.the sleeves make the arms look big.lol.but guess we dun have much of a choice.i am having trouble with to the lighthouse and i totally am screwing up my brain upside down to think of what all the subtle hints in the passage means..she sounds mad..i am sorry but it is kinda irritating when you cant interpret a prose and you gotta write a four page essay bout it...lol.enough of blogging.my mom is gonna rant at me again.

2009-04-17T18:58:00.002+08:00

been missing for some time cos i have been really busy with like two literature essays and my PW. handed in the PI and got my groupings. haha. ended up with benita, shir, ian and kassandra.lol.having some trouble over which idea to choose.hmm.co is now four times a week and it is getting really taxing. i am like totally exhausted from all the training reaching gome only at nine.i got 18 over 30 for my maths test.not very good but at least it is a pass.:) co the chairman is like really disappointed with us and i can understand her feelings of a gold with honours but i think she is really pressuring too much.whatever comes and happens, happens cos it is meant that way.if you are not meant for it than i guess you are not.that is what i live by in my life.exahusted.just wanna sleep and get a good rest.

2009-04-12T10:52:00.003+08:00

the acjc play, the odessey(is it the right spelling?) was just damn cool.oh god. the acting was really good and the effects are like great.lol.the props are nice and i wonder if ajc stageworks is as good as them.hmm.very impressed.but we kinda came off at the wrong bustop and ended up walking a real long way to the other gate.lol.but still made it in time.they have got a super nice auditorium.jeez.so unfair, compared to ajc run-down auditorium.finished up the geog project,searching for info for PI and also muggin hard now for my H1 maths. must score at least a pass.co practice has like officially increased to like four times a week. oh god. i just hope i can cope well. but it is only till syf. so i guess just bear with it. blogging off now.
PS. ppl can say what they want but they dun understand you. i knw you well and i knw that you will never give in to any negetive influences.so cheer up.

2009-04-09T22:59:00.003+08:00

this week has been like so busy.hradly have time for a breather.the hw are piling up so gonna clear them this week.tmr is holiday so i watching play by acjc tmr night.lol.this week pe has been like shit.did launches and my lower part hurts like big time.oh god.haha.co is killing me esp the schedule.it seems like they are going at full steam..terrrifying.next tuesday maths tests.i am like so nervous.dunno if it will be hard.pray not. pw PI was be handed in next week the first draft. had the criteria and guidelines and guiding map given to me today.it looks so complicated.god.guess we cant always have the best in life.:) yesterday went to pulau tekong BMTC and it was quite an eye-opener.the camp was not like how i imagined it to be.ot was pretty well-buolt and furnished.like saw the bunk and the resting rooms.it was ok. the obstacles course look really hard.eveb thgh the military ppl made it look so easy.lol.tried my hands at shooting and god was i so bad that all my shots went out.haha.tried some of the food rations and it was ok. not too bad actually.the dry-pack food was quite cold thgh.lol.fely kinda weird.overall it was like a really cool experience.and i saw a lot of like ex-BBSSians cos jjc got go.like ms anthea tay who looks so cool.lol.well, i am so tired.gonna rest soon.

2009-04-05T17:47:00.002+08:00

woohoo.35/09 successfully held the haunted house.lol.but i think i was quite short-tempered today and kinda lost it quite a few times. so here i sincerely apologize to anybody whom i might have lashed at during the carnival.it was not intemtional.:) the carnival was fun.the stores sell like satay than sell soda and chocolate and everything and i was just like oh god, i want to eat all those but in the rnd i didnt or actually nobody got to eat anything cos we were all busy managing the haunted hse. we had like overwhleming response and we had quite a hard time coping and i kinda made quite a few mistakes along the way like making wrong choices and decisions and as a result shir and i kinda had a hard time trying to calm everybody down.sorry for thr trouble shir and yean cheng.you guys did a great job and i think all the ghosts and everybody worked real hard and i think everyone did a great job.good job guys.:)claudy get well soon. went home for dinner but actually i wanted to go to junction 8 with the rest of them for like a short meal.but my mom was bound to nag at me so i just went home for dinner.tmr is a holiday for me.i am gonna rest cos i am down with sorethroat and cough.sighz.

2009-04-04T19:10:00.001+08:00

AJC CARNIVAL 2009
9AM to 3PM
COME DOWN AND SUPPORT 35/09 CANDY GRAVEYARD!
AT READING ROOM

2009-04-04T19:06:00.002+08:00

today went for co and i am so happy.i was punctual for once.lol.after co i went to help out in the haunted hse preparation.fun.hung up the black bags and also put the sweets and everything.than had a dry run, with the council ppl.i am just so praying that we make a profit tmr, or at least engh to cover costs.lol.tmr to report at 7am to the reading rm to do last minute touch-ups.other classes were also doing their stuff today and it looks like it is gonna be fun and fun.lol.25km run in the morning thgh.poor ppl in my class.jia you to them.:) oh.i have like a sore throat and it hurts like shit but on the bright side, monday is college holiday.yay.looks forward to it cos than can catch up on all the hw and lessons.

2009-04-03T16:43:00.002+08:00

finally, the end of the week has come. sunday is family day carnival.woo.haha.yesterday was a really bad day for me esp after PE, kinda pissed. first of all, i had mango juice spilled on me than i had the bloody vending machine eating up my money and not producing any drinks and my bag strap broke.god.now i am using the damn heavy shoulder bag and it is killing me.plus i was so tired when i went home that i slept immediately and totally forgot to do any of my hw. so now i have like loads of hw to do. the hw are like piling up. i have like GP and econs and lit and chinese and geog.inj simple words all subjects.sch is getting tough.lol.this week has been like tiring.sighz.i feel like totally exhausted.going to watch the acjc drama company the odessey(not sure of the spelling) and wanted to watch with like shir and claud and ben but cos i got bloody co so i going with my sis instead.:( hope we will have a chance to like go out tgt in the future.lets pray hard and i finally mastered the art of opening my lock.woohoo.haha.so now i can put books inside and nt worry about nt being able to take them out.:)

2009-03-31T18:15:00.003+08:00

this week has been a ok week,i mean it is only tuesday. cant expect too much yet.everyone seems to be fallingsick.i think everyone is stressed out over either cca stuff or carnival stuff except claudia maybe.:) she is ever as cheerful.today's geography was fun.we had such a fun time crapping about the rocks and what they represent.i think we produced more rubbish than effective information :p.lol.econs is still as boring as ever and the rocks chapter of geography is really dry.i feel like sleeping everytime i attend the lecture.sighz.a very bad sign. nxt two days no chinese.kinda happy thgh i shld be guilty abt harbouring such feelings.everyone is like busy preparing for the AJ 25th anniversary carnival.today some part of the class stayed back to like start preparing the advertising stuff and like four of us went all the way to woodlands pasa malam there to get some props for the haunted hse.and i might as well take this opportunity to tell everyone that AJC is having an carnival and the following is the info:
5th April 2009( sunday)
Starts at 9am
one ticket is $5 and..
if you do want to go pls tell me and i will get you the tickets and also if you are going pls come down to 35/09 haunted house and support us!! thanks.
haha.i am like making an advertisment.lol.PE tmr.hope it is heats.than i wont have to run 2.4km.prays damn hard.:)
H1 maths test in week our.:( must start study..

2009-03-27T21:06:00.002+08:00

had the festival of life today.and i went for the DJ workshop.met yean cheng and vernon outside school gate than went in. got scolded this morning by this instructor saying that i was doing somethng dangerous when i listen to my mp3 and walk like hello, i was walking on the pavement and not on the road.jeez.the DJ workshop was cool. the instructor was DK Ko-Flow.finally get to see him in real life.he really has that DJ look.lol.wadever it is.we were introduced to the diff beats and mixing and scratching techniques.i got the opprtunity ot go up there and like try a forward scratch on the turntable.damn it. like after the workshop i also feel like learning the turntables.damn cool. and it is actually quite nice,the beats.lol,.Dj Ko-Flow samples a few pieces for us and oh god, his fingers move frigging fats can.it is like so easy for him to control but trust me it is isnt cos i tried and oh god, it is like both sides of your brain wont co-operate at all.lol.sighz.it was fun.went to school after that after lunch with su peng to collect the sgc frm bt batok.it is quite impressive.lol.than after than i got the yearbook too. lol, quite nice.tmr still got co. gotta rest soon and the daruan problem is still like unsolved.god. i am having an headache over it. like totally.

2009-03-25T16:59:00.002+08:00

oh god..i am like officially sick just three days into term 2 of school. didnt go co today cos in was feeling really unwell and my whole body was aching. regret going for PE lessons. the whole thing exploded into a fever just right after PE and there is a high chance that i cant make it for the high element thngy tmr.i am sad.looked forward to it.:( today got out PW question.one on emergency and the other on conservation.hmm.dunno which one to do.both seem harder than previous year. and seniors say it is stressfu. i am kinda feeling scared.lol.better play all i want this week.cos nxt wk everything starts for real.got back my geog test got like 19/35. not bad considering that it was my first time.lol.sighz.hope i can get better soon. havent eaten anything at all since like morning 10 15 cos i have no appetite at all. truly missing sx.if she were here, she wld be consoling me and evrything and making me feel at ease.lol.gonna rest..

2009-03-23T17:46:00.002+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL IS OVER!!!LOL.first day was ok.hmm.getting irritated with my lit and econs tutor.and shir looks like she is gonna explode everytime she goes to lit paper 1 class.lol.i swear by my name that the teacher needs hearing aids.:)mr mohan is still as naggy as ever and lol..i failed like my compre diagnositc test with a score of like 8.5 over 20.:( well.maths was ok.kinda like it actually.but i was like so tired near the end of the day and tmr my chinese lesson has got to be pushed back due to my chinese tch having some NE survey and tuseday is like the day i am let off early.hmm.tired.big time. tmr is a short day so it is ok i guess. this thursday and friday is gonna be so slack with like the resilience workshop and like DJ-ing the whole day.yay.co da zhu on wednesday if we perform well thn no sectionals.pray hard for it. hw all finished.like jc life.it is fun.:) well.tired.gonna rest.:)

2009-03-22T00:30:00.002+08:00

today's outing to sentosa was suppose to be fun and it was ok but the fact that so many ppl dropped out last minute kinda pissed me off..and the rest too.lol.went down to sentosa right after co and when i reach there i made my way to siloso beach and when i reach there i made endless calls before benita fetched and kindly informed me that they change location to palawan beach.than it started raining and they ask me to meet them at beach stn instead to go back to vivocity.wasted my 3 bucks.lol.nvr mind.hahas.claudia dun feel so bad.it is ok. nobody knew it was gonna rain.met up with like ian and brendon and the OGs and went to vivocity carl's junior for like a late lunch.poor brendon had like no money and had to borrow money.lol.claudia was so poor thing.the ice tea flowed so slowly that she ended up at least 3 minutes filling her drink.hilarious.afterwards all of us took mrt home and when i reached home i juys kinda knocked out and slept till my parents came home and i ate dinner and now i am doing my maths logarithms and blogging.:) it is a bad habit so pls dun pick it up too.co was just fine.the same old.aiming for a 40.jiayou to all daruan players.:)hope claudia gets her foot healed soon. and benita..dun come and scare me with what a new timetable.checked online there is noting.wah.last day of hols.so precious.missed hols loads.misses frens loads.love 35/09 and love AJC.

2009-03-20T16:57:00.004+08:00

lol.everyone is so busy. no one has the time to meet up. we all end school at diff timing but i am sure our frenship will last.so no worries sx. and well,the reason why i am not having a new blog is cos i cant bear to part with all my posts.lol.today we did the haunted hse presentation.the councillors were quite friendly.kinda surprise.had lunch at nyp with ben and vernon and ian and shir.crapped like shit.but i hate the milk tea.too milky.:( i am kinda pissed.even if you hate me and think i have been unfair, i dun think it gives you the right to take me out of your life completely and to ignore me.you can flirt all you want and i am not gonna give a damn but i think at least we can be frens rather than just enemies. i cant bring myself to meet you yet but i think it is getting better. heard that you went into singapore poly.well, congrats.and hopefully that is the course you always wanted.if i may have hurt you ever with my words than i apologize now but lets maintain a friendship at least.and lastly, a late happy 17th b'dae. missing my frens and sad that hols are coming to an end.lol.

2009-03-19T17:38:00.002+08:00

holidays so i have more time to blog.:) thaks for linking me ppl.:)woots.co today was like bonding session and so we had games like two truths and one lie.everybody was stun when is aid i broke my nose before.lol.than we had like limeball.a lame version of captain ball played with a lime.lol.yea.i know your reaction.did like 5 maths questions during practice while waiting for my turn at the daruan.lol.and wow, i got like 32.5 for my daruan test. surprise.thght i wld fail.but ying shiang stilll did better with like 38.1. well, i think everyone did well.but there is still improvememnt and suixin, pretty please cld i have like one zhongruan lesson with you cos huizhen thinks i am learning with lan lao shi but in reality i am not.lol.and the daruan prob is giving me a huge headache.damn it.i really am dumb when it comes to a vending machines.example:
i want to buy this oatmeal thingy.
(i put the money in and noting comes out and my money is returned to me)
me: how do i use this?
claudia:err..and she ends up teaching me.and i feel damn dumb cos this has happen a lot of time.
sighz.lol.tmr is like haunted hse presentation. hope we do well.and i am sad cos i just found out that we wont be going back to indonesia or taiwan this hols.sad.i miss my cousins loads.and the food there.:) hope i can go there in june:)prays hard.:)

2009-03-18T17:32:00.002+08:00

just change my blog song from face down by red jumpsuit apparatus to the diary of jane by breaking benjamin.love that song.lol.i like rock music so dun be surprise if you notice that the music i play is always rock.if you want to know i am a huge fan of linkin park.:) and i like almost any other rock artiste.R&B is fine by me.:) and ppl, i have relink everyone.:)

2009-03-18T16:34:00.002+08:00

lol...back to blogging..sry for the long hiatus..cos quite busy with like test.it is finally the hols.yay.damn happy just that i have like co on every other day. will link ppl today.:) school is doing great. in like things are fine and i have like assimilated and adapted to the mad PE in AJC.hah.was surprise when i woke up in the morning and my muscles werent aching.lol.went to see bbssco perform at like cck.hmm.it was ok. but i think they a bit stone.but that is the way it is since like previous batches.lol.i fell from the top of the stairs to the bottom like two days ago carrying the daruan.the floor was like wet so i miss my footing.i was lucky to have escape with just like some bruises.thght i wld sprain my ankle or break a few bones.haha.i think i am damn lucky.jeez.i think i failed the co test. cos like the tester was talking to us about the retest.sighz.guess i am just not good engh.:)this saturday is like OG Outing to sentosa.haha.looks forward to it but the fun is kinda dampen by the thght of co practice in the morning.met pearl and enise for lunch like two days ago.lol.miss them.love you guys.loads.and i will get your gift soon pearl so dun worry.talked a lot of crap.felt like old times.lol.and sui xin.booked out of camp at last.come and tag me.:) contact me again regarding ther meeting and also, post your camp things on the blog.(your blog).ok..i want to see. and dun be so depress.cheer up. i am no longer with you in the same school but i will definitely still support you all the way. so know that i still are for you out there.i guess it is time you learnt to libe without me beside you.:) but you can do it.:)lol.that is bout it.updating soon.;) and oh yes. where can i find shoes with like cherries on them??

2009-02-27T17:36:00.002+08:00

finally, end of the week..feel exhausted and all the muscles in my body are aching like shit.the pe in anderson is tough man. crunches, push ups, bridging.omg.nvr had such a tough pe in my life. i am like limping now.lol.this week we started the real lecture.hmm.scheldule is ok. i finish at arnd 3 everyday. but got two days i finish at 1 plus.lol.yay.lectures are fun and interesting and so are tutorials.but have hw already. so sad.must start studying already.signed up for DJing for the festival of life workshop.today we presented the gifts to out OGLs and oh god, the soft toys were juz damn cute.lol.co this week is the same old.sighz.want to give up on it. so sick and tiring.just received call from pearl asking me to go HMV meet her like hello..are u mad..it is like 5 already.my dinner dun need to eat.so much to cramp in.the carnival idea for my class has been approved.woots.the bloody auditorium is spoilt so we are all having lectures at like the hall.the auditorium is too hot to have lectures.lol. hall i sit until my back pain and butt pain.lol.today had OG lunch cos btwn my last lecture ad aft lecture got two hours.than like the whole class, 17 of us went down to nyp for lunch. like some army like that.lol.walking in two.had japanese fodd.but i swear that the food at nyp is cheap.lol.and it is not too bad tasting.yay.getting lockers soon i think.love life.enjoying myself.anderson is really fun. more than i expected.lol.this is a lesson that we cant judge a book by its cover.lol.

2009-02-22T14:04:00.002+08:00

lectures are kinda fun but maybe that is cos it is only temporary timetable.haha.better enjoy myself while i still can.lol.love my eng lit lessons. the teachers are great esp ms zobel.like her loads.lol.geog is ok but i have just got a thing with her voice.act not just me all of us from 35/09 and taking her lecture all feel the same.economics is quite fun.quite interesting and so far i am keeping up quite well.i know most ppl wont believe when i say this but i think i am gonna turn into a nerd.i actually spent break times with the rest of my class in the libary or reading rm finishing up the tutorials or reading up on external knowledge.geez.i dun want to be a nerd.lol.co is ok.just want to get it over with.if i get in than good. if i dun, it is ok cos that means i can spend time on other things too like my studies. havent had time to rush down to bugis to get the geography reference book.wah. so busy.nvr mind. i am sure i can find some time. jc is really diff from secondary in like now we actually have like a class table that we sit together during break times.and it is like even thgh we have our own grp of frens whom we sit with and eat with during lecture and lunch we still bond as a class.lol.jc life is great and i mean it.except fotr the cca part.but hack. i cant be bothered with that.deadpans. carnival coming up soon.wooh.got lots of stuff to eat and play.look forward to it. but dread the pe training.benita and sherlyn are like planning an OG outing for everyone. hope it will be fun.well.i have blogged a lot.time to get a break.:)

2009-02-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

orientation has just been fun and fun and fun..met my class PDG 35/09. quite a nice batch of ppl but a bit wild and playful thgh..lol. first day we had games and dance and the games were fun but the dance was kinda hard. first day we learnt the burikito dance..or something like that..quite a lame dance, we call it chicken dance cos you dance like a chicken..lol. the 2nd and third and fourth days we learnt the college dance which is that girl and IGBM as well as the couple dance, mambo no 5. partner up with claudia..lol.i guy she girl.the games were quite fun but than the water games were a bit disappointing..but still..ok lah..today had like class dinner at KFC with my OG leaders..fun, fun and i went to like NTUC at amk hub to like buy valentine day chocolates and everbody was there too..we were like just laughing away..geez..tmr is college CIP with my J2 seniors from 35/08. they are quite nice and i found out that the arts students all have air-con classrms..woots..senior class has 10 ppl while mine has 22 ppl..hmm. timetable come out already and ok lah..not too bad, end at arnd 2 plus..and oh yea...sign up for co and now kinda regrettin git cos feeling depress cos everyone is like so good there..wah..feel lonely..sighz. i just love scorpia house cheer.the one where we stamp our feet and shout siam at everyone..damn nice and cool thgh a bit crude..lol. my OG leader seems to like it a lot..haha. the cheers are not bad..quite like cheering and today we had like the dance competiotn for the two college songs and thgh we did not win, it was quite a good experience,,i manage to grasp the basics and arnd 80% of the dance..lol.not too bad.clap for myself.*rofl*okie.tmr cip got a long day. everything ends at 8 plus OG supper.must rest early.:)ciao.

2009-02-05T15:51:00.002+08:00

i have offcially decided to maintain my blog again instead of leaving it unattended..haha..today was a slack day..had maths lecture and we were learning the graphic calculator and i was like so lost cos i use the texas instrument one while the rest use casio and unlike scientific calculators whereby the functions for diff brands are more or less the same, the graphic calculators has a huge diff in the functions btwn the diff brands..to like plot the graph the teacher was like press F6 and F5 thn blah blah...and i was like damn..i dun have any of these buttons on my GC..i think i have to start reading up on the GC guide..hmm..thn we had talks on like NYAA and scholarships and i wondering if i shld apply for like the Anderson Junior College CCA scholarship..hmm..but got interview leh..thn aft this we had a talk by the councillor..quite a hilarious guy. tmr is like the games day btwn the MG groups members..hope it will be fun..thank goodness i made the effort to like make three to four frens during matriculation week..at least i wont be like alone...i am just so exhausted..yawns..gonna take a nap..:)

JC life

2009-02-04T21:34:00.003+08:00

i woke up at 6.20 and they said: you have been posted to Anderson Junior College.not much reaction cos i kinda had a gut feeling that i wont get into anglo chinese but will go anderson instead..in the morning i asked around all my friends who applied for anderson science stream and i found out that none of them got in..kinda shock cos it was out of everyone's expectations..the next feeling was like shit..i got no frens in anderson at all..ahh..so there are offcially 6 of us in anderson..mark, kurtz, ronald, yiting, me and hui shan.first day of school i was like wow..the hall is huge..lol..posted to MG group 3 like wth.. i am so far away from the rest...struck up a conversation with this swiss cottage girl..hmm..seems quite nice..lol..went to auditorium for like introduction of subjects and the combinations and prerequisites as well as uni talks..my butt felt flat at end of the day..jc life is not too bad..2nd day..today we started introductory lectures and wow..during economics i was like super lost..i was like huh?? we were doing on the fundamentals of market on economic agents..what a bombastic title..lol..and the market and demand circle got me so confuse..but the rest of the lectures were ok..nearly fell asleep during physics till my stuff fell of the tables..lol..third day i attend lit lecture and wow..pretty impressive..the ppl around me are all like so well educated of eng lit poet..feel kinda lost..jeez..met a few seniors form bbss during my 2 hr break from lecture..queuing up for pe shirts,,seniors are nice i guess..and i went for cca carnival today..hmm..it was ok..think i will still end up joing co..haha..i am just so stubborn..had a nice time today wth everyone from bbss..talking and stuff..my combi is officially chosen: H2 econs, H2 geography, H2 english literature and H1 maths. ta-dah.hmm..A0101..shld be kinda slack but it is the closest thing to what i want..arrgh..tmr must wake up at 5.55 again..god..if only the school wasnt at yio chu kang..well..gotta sleep soon..night! :)

2008-12-01T20:28:00.001+08:00

wow..it seems like ages since i posted a blog post and since pearl asked for one, i will greatly oblige her.=) so much has happen in such a short time..olevels than prom nite and the greatest thing is that i am going to europe from 20th december until 31st december. the itinery consists of amsterdam,munchen,koln and salzburg.i am just frigging excited..my mom has been in a pretty generous mood recently,she has bought me new jeans,new shoes and a new bag is coming up soon..=)sadly, we wont be going back to indonesia it seems cos my parents are busy with work to accompany us there.=( oh well..lets hope next year i will be able to have a quick escapade there before the school year for 2009 starts..dreads the release of o levels results..i mean seriously, i have tried to avoid thinking about it but when i do think of this, the thought kinda frightens me..lol..i know i should get the zhongruan lessons back on track but i am just too lazy..i have been shopping, watching drama serials on my computer..swears it will burn out by the end of hols..and cleaning up my worksheets and textbooks..trying to convince my mom to let me learn guitar..havent got the guts to ask her..went to brash basah bookshop to sell my old textbooks and is old three new brand new unwritten books and he gave me a frigging 4 bycks for all the three books..i kinda got pissed..geez..how measly they are..so i have concluded that it is a bad idea to seel your books there and if u sell it yourself u might just make more money...=)

2008-03-23T16:26:00.000+08:00

finally posting again after a long three or is it four months break?? loads has happened. but lets have the good news first...i got a brand new pair of jeans, i gor chemistry tuition,i scored 13 points for my common test 1 and best,i get to continue hmt cos i got myself a big fat A1 for my express chinese...shld have seen lcl ecpression whe she gave the cert...lol..anyways bad news are that it is the olevels and i feel that my brains are burning out...but on thw whole i seem to be performing better this year?? i just hope so.lol.i had a boring bdae this year to say the truth but i jjust got the my girl cd not long ago and i was like binging on it the whole march hols..but the nxt thing that i look forward to is...performance at NAFA theatre..a collobaration btwn co and choir...wow..public performance..i am kinda excited but bored out by the practices...and oh yes..i have an ongrowing obssesion with vampire knight..a shoujo manga and i just cant wait for the 23rd of each mth when it will be released..in like a new chapter..and best of all?? its anime is coming out in april..great news for all vk fans out there i am sure...but sch life just gets slightly better only esp when i am passing all my tests for once.....

2007-11-16T14:29:00.000+08:00

oh well..kinda lazy to blog nowadays.just to say the truth.it is sort of like i feel life is so bored.op lvel chinese just finish.it went fine.not wonderful though.lol.now waiting to take my grading test.kinda feel some fear.well it is my first time so...went to watch stardust with xinn that day,it is great movie and ir eally enjoyed it and as we watched it on wednesday we got it like at a real cheap rate at cathay orchard.lol.aft that we went shopping round and we bus-ed home on 77.crapping along the way.now life is just polluted with ISPL and co.dead boring..

2007-10-15T17:54:00.000+08:00

got back all my results cept physics and i am so SCREWED.lets see,humanities and eng were all quite good. but my maths all had a boderline pass.my science was just horrible.well.sure u get the hint behind it.and now my head is hanging by the chains bcos i am afraid i will be asked to drop a maths thgh to be fair i only failed by 0.5 marks overall and now higher mother tounge.i am being forced to drop against my will.damn it.life just suxs.dropping hmt means i will have to go back to lcl chinese class nxt yr.as much as chia lek kee say can go back once get A1 or A2 for o level chinese.i highly doubt it cos i heard these words frm lcl.once u drop, u cant go back.tah-dah.so i am just one road down.no return noting.and to think i slough shit for 5 yrs just to be asked to drop like now!!damn t.if there ever was higher english, i wld be the first to join.lol.all this add on to my o level mother tounge which i am like so scrwed for and the instrumental examinations.lol.if i come out alive.i will have a lot to thank for.a nice start to my hols...

2007-10-04T15:28:00.000+08:00

exams over at last.celebrate.or at least till i get back the results for all the freaking subjs that i have like flung.esp geog.my best and yet the most scrwed up.=( shall not think bout it.tmr got no sch for me.cheers.lol.damn happy.gonna relax.i think my brain needs it.today went to westmall with xinn aft the exams.lol.spent quite some time there thn aft that we both made our way home.i am taking a break from my ruan lessons cos i wanna rest first before i continue to practice and prepare for the grading.sft this i first have my o level chinese to worry about than aft that still got my grading before i can go to holiday in a piece of mind.lol.look forward to going back to indonesia.my mom has said that we will be going back.lets just hope she will keep to it.miss my cousins there loads.hmm.

2007-09-22T21:59:00.000+08:00

scrwed up..seriously.my hmt is destined to fail.i cld hardly even understand the last passage.i had no idea what it was talking about.i just wrote some crap cos i was like in a really bad mood.and pissed.but i just feel like crying.i dun wanna drop it. i did not put in 5 yrs of shit just to drop it at such a crucial time.thn my a amths again.i am like so scared that i will fail and drop the subject and it is like i have a million and one fears.look forward to hols though.cos can go back to indonesia at last.it has been years since i went back.i miss the food there,my cousins and relatives,my cousin dog-rocky, and a million and one stuff.it is always sad whe it is time for me to leave and come back to singapore.hopefully there will come a time where i can stay for a few mths in a row.i did love that.lol.but that means i will go back to taiwan only in june nxt yr.or maybe not till yr-end.dunno.i onli like taiwan cos tghe food there and shopping is good.but i dun really like my relatives there.all so stuck up.bleah.and they have like no sense of warmth.in indonesia all of us gather together and it is like so warm and friendly.i actualy feel like a familyn singapore, my life is like so dead.no realtives noting.that is the bad thing about being the child of expats living here.i miss my ruan so much,cant wait to touch it again and play the new song.ruan on fire or shld i say guitar on fire.lala.

2007-09-20T16:26:00.000+08:00

emaths test yesterday.i was staring at my paper when the circles became mooncake right in front of my eyes.yes,i slipped into lalaland unwittingly.and talking bout round moooncakes.no wonder i got 0 over 15 for the test. paiseh.it is really bad but lucky not counted so yea.let it rest bah.screwed up my eng compo free-writing today.damn.i was like so confuse bout the plot that in the end i just wrote crap.a whole lot of it.but the speech was good.lol.so i will not be depressed.damn! tmr hmt.scrwed up def.if there is a hard mother tounge in this wrld, it is def hmt.it drives me mad. if i fail this i will have to drop.that is why everybody is like freaking stressed up. cos this wld decide our fate in lcl hands.wethrer we comtinue or drop.lol.yep.so depressed.lol.just came frm westmall.went to buy stationary.the cheapest i cld find.thn aft that i oggled at the mooncake somemore.+)at the booth there.lol.scarely i get more zero,.lol.crap..how do u writer gong han..hmm..

2007-09-06T18:15:00.000+08:00

went with xinn to orchard just on wenesday.aft chem whereby we had a test and ate pizza.(courtesy of ms ng), we went to subway to eat the sandwich but the bus journey had us creeped out.around the fifth stop from where we boarded this physco guy came on the bus and he beheaved so wierdly.evrybody on the bus was just so freak out.lol.it was creepy.i swear i wont take 174 again.=)at subway we ate and shopped round the far east before i departed for tuition.bored sick of tuition.lol.today had co.scolded as usual.life in co is the only thing that does not change=).bored out with life..

2007-09-03T20:12:00.000+08:00

hols are here at last.finally can wake up at 11.lol.i know i am such a pig but yea.last day of sch.tchs day.me and xinn went orchard to get our instructors gift.got her a hellokitty bag.her favourite.thn aft that we went round to have lunch from shilin.thn tah-dah.we lft far east and hiked to the 174 bustop stopping at mark and spence long the way/yea.today had co.it was okie. got scolded.lol.on the bright side, i can have a new beijing ruan.i am jumping for joy.at last the ruan of my dreams.woohoo.not easy convincing my mom.hmm.this whole week packed with enrichment and tuition.not so nice aft all huh....

2007-08-21T16:31:00.000+08:00

it has been million of yrs since my last post but all the same that is thanks to my common test and i got back all my results.not very happy but at least i was not one of the many who failed.my physics got 15 thn chemistry 9(failed) thn my eng 21 and my e maths 18(f) well mainly bcos i was sick with diarrohea on the last day of common test and cld not study since half the time time was spent in front of the toilet.lol.yep.thn today amaths i got 19.woohoo.pass at last.thn sunday i attendedn the ruanxian concert and oh my god.damn i wanna be as good as them.i am gonna crap like shit for my zhong ruan.and shen fei.i am like wow.he is like so pro.a virtuso they call him. and i agree too. the concert was amazing and i love the sabre dance, and a few of liu xing songs.i thnk liu xing songs are nice,he is a good composer.yep.lol.saw some familiar faces there including shen lao shi.lol. but before tha we actually went to orchard to shop at far east and at the same time we also took neoprints haha.and we ate the chicken rice store again.sighz.ruan xian juz roxs..

2007-08-07T18:16:00.000+08:00

waa..holidays at last.five days in a row what is more.firt in my life besides the school hols.anyway today evryone was in a bad mood.yea.esp sx.noting i did could cheer her up till the test(chemistry)was over and the test was ok.i thnk i will pass.now maths we got back and i did not get sausage marks nor did i getegg marks.i got 7 for a maths and 10 for emaths.i noe it is not wonderful but still i manage to scarape off without a high range single digit.though i am still very disappointed.aft sch went wth sx to get her contacts changed cos the old one tore than we went shop and save and ate sushi and thada.back home.co got so many new pu and exciting performances coming up.nxt yr esp.i am so excited even thgh it is my o level year nxt yr.sighz.hope my mom will allow me to go.arrgh.tmr is zhongruan lesson wth instructor again and shit i still cannot do the hit and strum effect.die lah.how.my grading like this will fail one.wahh.so trm keat hong again.anybody going for ruanxian concert??if yes pls tell me your ticket price so that i can order.this is only for zhongruan players only.thanx,

2007-08-02T19:27:00.000+08:00

had such an emo day today.first thing in the morning i went into a bad temper cos my glitter was all smudge thanx to the man-handling by evryone and the bkshop does not sell glitter.so i got damn pissed and scared evrybody within 5m radius of me.but i forgot that as my a maths test approach and i think i comletely screwed it up.seriously i had not engh time to do the paper.and the last straw was in co.today was the handing over ceremony and afterwards we all got to meet our seniors for the last time and liang ying gave us ruanners eacha hand-written card and after reading it i did not cry but celine cried first than pearl and than i just cld not take it and i just cried.the things in the card was really touching and i just felt that i was so gonna miss her presence.she has been a great senior and sort of senior-teacher to me and all the other ruanners.yea.for xinn she did not cry much but it was the first time she saw mw cry and we ruannners were like the only ones crying.afterwards i hugged with all the seniors.i am just so gonna miss them.seriously.they have made a huge difference to my life in co.they have made it so much more interesting and i just wanna thanx them all for the guidance and paitience in teaching us the skills that had enabled us to be in the standard we are at now.love u all....

2007-07-30T17:02:00.000+08:00

lols.today was school again.metamorphosis kinda rocked but left me feeling very tired.lol.hmm.school was kinda bad today.got scoled and forced to stand by mdm yeo cos i cant answer the question.sighz.thn aft that was chemistry and the whole experiment went completely wrong.seriously wrong.it will be a wonder if i dont fail.lol.thn aft that enrichment class.sianz.cept got do QA.yep.thn now my geog test fail by 1/2 marks.damn.i am so pissed-_-! thn read vampire knight in class esp during geog in com lab since i finish work thn my computer cant log on so..yep.seriously tired and yawning.

2007-07-24T16:37:00.000+08:00

blogging again at last.so busy.but this whole week no test.first in a whole two terms.but common test is coming up so i will still have to mug.lol.woohoo.this saturday is metamorphosis at last.lol.can perform agin.my last performance was like last mth bt to be fair sunday performance by keat hong was quite good actually.and victoria concert hall is grand.i mean damn grand.after the perfomance we took a lot of super lame photos that showed all us ruan players together.lol.=)me.pearl,sx and celine.lol.tmr can wear metamorphosis t-shirt.shld i??hmm.will see first.anyway the harry potter book got me so engrossed finished it last night but i am so tired now cos slept at 12 30 last noght.and i failed another amths test...

2007-07-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

hmm.amaths test over.wonder if i will fail?if i pass it is borderline if i fail it would be borderline too.yep.and my mom is not too happy over it.lol.aft sch had free period cos ms lau lft early.sup to do summary but ended up slacking with xinn.lol.today everybody was barefooted in class.haha.why??because aft PE when it was raining we walk back to class and we had to tread thrgh water and the shoes completely got soaked in MUDWATER.eww.so i had to pluck of my socks and wear wthout socks.yea.and today physics me and xinn sat thrgh it like blurr sotong.did not understand a single word but thanx to ppl in front of our bench we got it at last.we much difficulty.lol.slo-minded the whole day.thn aft sch i had chinese orchestra and it was like 90%of the time i was outside the room playing my role as a sectional leader by marking attendance,going round to pass announcement to the junior in the other room.to print the scores and finally in practice and after that i had to collect money for the performance at VCH this sunday and some sec 1s, dunno which one nvr pay i thnk.so we have like missing a 5 dollar and i am suppose to go money hunting tmr for these ppl.like i am so free as a sec3.and thanx to the performance i have to go to tuition at sunday morning.super early like 8 round there.bleah.saturday rehersal again.at ACS(barker).hopefully can go hunting again...ms ang is leaving us.sighz.so soon i thought she wld stay for a year.i will def miss her presence in class...lol.